Chapter 5

Xu Dongyang shook his head and turned to leave. He took two steps and said softly, "Actually, I have changed my phone number once or twice, and each time I informed everyone, asking them to contact me with the new number. But I have kept this number because I didn't know how to tell you, so I thought I would keep it, in case one day you wanted to find me, you could reach me. I am very afraid that we would lose contact forever. You know, this number is only used by you, so when the phone rings, I know it is you. " But I have kept this number because I didn't know how to tell you, so I thought I would keep it, in case one day you wanted to find me, you could reach me. I am very afraid that we would lose contact forever. You know, this number is only used by you, so when the phone rings, I know it is you.

I still collapsed, sweet words are never too cloying for women, no matter how many there are, they are never enough, especially when Xu Dongyang says them to me. At this moment, Xu Dongyang's words feel like an ancient artifact freshly forged, invincible in their direction. Despite repeatedly telling myself in my heart: he is deceiving me, he is deceiving me. I still surrendered, and once again, I was completely defeated.

Let us talk, wait for me

I said no, I said I suddenly came to understand it myself

You made it clear that your request for money is merely a pretext; in fact, you just want to have a conversation with me and reminisce about the past. Am I correct in saying this

I will not go to your house to get money for you, no matter how I talk to you, I will not go.

Don't hang up, let's talk

"Coral, I will only say a few words, and then I will leave." Xu Dongyang sighed deeply and said, "I think there is a misunderstanding between us. That day, I did not mean it that way. However, you know, it has been a long time since we last met, and I have been feeling somewhat unsettled. Therefore, I not only wanted to borrow money, but I also wanted to see you."

Coral, I do not wish to explain, I have my own difficulties. I came today not for money, truly not, I genuinely want to clarify things with you

Habits can be frightening. When I dialed the phone number, I realized that I was calling Xu Dongyang's number. For a long time, I had been repeatedly dialing his number at night, though I never pressed the call button. As I kept dialing, it became a habit. It was just this time that I pressed the call button, and I couldn't tell whether it was conscious or unconscious.

That day the moon was beautiful and the wind was pleasant, my dream lover came running from afar, standing in the night wanting to share heartfelt words with me, but for some reason, I felt like crying

I went to Su Xiaotao's house and had her write an agreement, informing my father that she would transfer her money to me. Then she ran back to tell Xu Dongyang that I had taken care of everything and that the money would arrive tomorrow. When I arrived, Su Xiaotao was sweetly in love with Lin Chunshan, and while she was disheveled, she wrote me a note and asked, "Have you seen Xu Dongyang?"

I hung up the phone, and an inexplicable wave of sadness surged within me. What am I doing? I no longer have any connection with Xu Dongyang. The mighty Yangtze River flows eastward, everything is moving forward, yet I stubbornly choose to be a fool who marks the boat to seek the sword.

Without waiting for my explanation, Xu Fangfei timely remarked, "Girls are outgoing"

Um, it's urgent

Xu Fangfei's evaluation of me has always been succinct. I remember the last time she evaluated me, it seemed to be four words as well: a girl with a masculine appearance

I took the note and went directly to my father's house to tell him that I needed money, with 300,000 as the minimum. My old father expressed great astonishment at my action, but he still agreed, and I left my bank card information. While I was doing this, Xu Fangfei stood beside me, arms crossed, watching coldly with a blank expression.

I said no, I do not intend to let Xu Dongyang come up

Yes. Xu Dongyang showed no intention of retreating: "This is exactly what I mean."

Regarding Xu Dongyang, I have always struggled to describe my feelings for him. Sometimes, when I reflect on it, I find myself uncertain whether I am reluctant to let go of him as a person or if I am unwilling to part with the emotions I have harbored over the years

Is that so? What you said truly moves me. Don't you just want to hear me say this? I am touched, but I will not give you any money, do you understand? I repeatedly remind myself not to have any further entanglements with him; I cannot afford to lose.

Just as I was about to leave to go back, my dad finally couldn't hold back: "Why are you in such a hurry?"

"Yes, you want to see me, but in the end, you still want money, don't you?"

Indeed, feeling bored and idle, with the rain falling on a cloudy day and nothing to do but scold the children, I have nothing better to do than to reach out to you, goodbye

Xu Dongyang arrived quickly, and Chen Weiwei was very perceptive: "I will avoid it"

Xu Dongyang is still downstairs. After I finished speaking and confirmed that the matter was settled, he remained silent. I understood that I had acted foolishly once again. I realized that there was no need to wait until tomorrow; tonight, after a moment of warmth, he would turn away. He is still someone else's husband, and I am merely a trophy on his emotional journey, a woman he can use to validate his charm during his moments of failure. I know all of this, yet I cannot and do not wish to resist. Some things, once given, can never be taken back.

Su Xiaotao laughed heartily: "Well, no matter how much you can figure it out on your own, it’s still not appropriate to come to me in the middle of the night wearing slippers to discuss this matter"

On the way back, I kept wondering whether I should take a look at Xu Dongyang's phone to see if I was truly the one and only. However, in the end, the moment I saw Xu Dongyang, I decided not to look. At this moment, whether the matter is true or false has nothing to do with him; I merely wanted some comfort for myself. What difference would it make to look? Even if it were true, all I could do would be this. If it were false, I have already given him what he wanted, so let it be; I will just treat it as a drunken mistake and not take it seriously. I seem to have discussed this issue with Chen Weiwei, questioning why it need not be taken seriously. The conclusion was: if I do not want to lose myself, why drink? What difference would it make to look? Even if it were true, all I could do would be this. If it were false, I have already given him what he wanted, so let it be; I will just treat it as a drunken mistake and not take it seriously. I seem to have discussed this issue with Chen Weiwei, questioning why it need not be taken seriously. The conclusion was: if I do not want to lose myself, why drink?

I only realized I had forgotten my keys when I got home. Chen Weiwei sleeps exceptionally well; even with the doorbell ringing loudly, he didn't hear it. I sat outside until dawn. When dawn broke, he stepped out to go to work, looking refreshed. Upon opening the door, he was quite surprised to see me: "Aren't you going to check into a hotel?"

I was somewhat surprised when a voice suddenly came through the receiver. I had originally thought he might change his number. The voice on the phone was calling my name, and I could not refrain from speaking: "How awkward, I thought it wouldn't connect, but it did. I apologize, I apologize."

Are you at home